How do you react?
What is your first thought upon hearing disappointing news?
What do you say?
My feelings towards the Navy and my husband's job are...complicated. On one hand, it's his job that brought us to beautiful southern California...that pays our bills...that has grown me so much as a person and wife...that has brought the most amazing friendships into my life. On the other hand, it's his job that is constantly taking my husband away from his family...that causes me to live so much of life without my best friend...that is always, always changing my plans. I would say my feelings towards the Navy range from hate-fueled rage to awe-filled appreciation.
One thing I do know...the Navy is always throwing disappointments my way. I mean, at least once a week something seems to come up that I was not planning on. I still react, because I'm human and I have emotions, but my reaction time has shortened over the years. I'm able now to move on faster and bring myself back to a place of peace. Usually I initially get really angry, thoughts of my hate for the military filling my mind. I have to go off by myself and cry and process. Then I can move into a place of prayer, telling God openly and honestly how I feel and what I think-- even though he already knows, voicing it helps me. After that I always have to remind myself of this verse:
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28
This is a verse I cling to. I constantly revisit it, reminding myself of its truth. Though my circumstances may really, really stink, I can rest in the promise that is contained in that verse. God is using the Navy to work good for me, for my husband, for our family. Knowing that makes it possible to move on with joyful expectation and renews my strength.
If you are facing disappointments in your life, I encourage you to keep this verse in front of you. Seek the Lord, be honest with him about your feelings-- he can handle all of your anger, frustration, and despair. He wants you to come to him with all of it. Then practice moving forward. Do whatever you need to in order to move on-- go for a walk, crank up some happy tunes, read some scripture, get crafty, take a hot bath. Remember that this too will pass and see disappointments as opportunities to grow.