Monday, August 8, 2016

be patient with me, I'm still learning...

Military is always throwing me curve balls! As soon as I think I am settled into a comfort zone, something changes and I'm thrown for a loop!

Right now, I am having trouble adjusting to Justin being home, which sounds bad to say. Let me explain...

When Justin is gone, I get into my routine and groove because I have to in order to survive it all. I plan out my days the way that I think best for myself and the kids. We stay busy with friends and outings. We focus in on our home schooling and field trips. I am completely in control and in charge of everything here. I have gotten pretty good at just picking up and carrying on when he leaves, because I have had a lot of practice.

But lately for whatever reason I have been having trouble adjusting to my husband coming home. I used to hear wives talk about this and would think "Well that's crazy, that will never be me." And here I am. I think it's partially because I've gotten so good at being on my own that now being a part of a couple again can be somewhat of a tricky thing. Suddenly I have to give up some of the control and hand it back to whom it rightfully belongs: my partner. I have to plan more around his needs and his schedule, and that just can get a little tedious and complicated if I'm being honest...because his schedule is never the same two days in a row.

Don't get me wrong-- I love when my husband is home. I really do, no matter how difficult it may be for me. Just having his presence here is so comforting to me.

And Justin & I are both feeling pretty burnt out. We are coming up on our third deployment in four years which means there have been back to back to back 6 month sections of training followed by 6 month deployments. In short, he's been gone a lot. His schedule has been hectic and busy and insane, and the kids and I have been left here to deal with it. It has been a lot and we all are just ready for a break and some stability I think.

Hopefully coming soon, at least for a while...until that next curve ball arrives!

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