Tuesday, May 20, 2014

treasured daughter

it recently occurred to me that my entire adulthood has been spent mothering young children. I got pregnant when I was barely 19. that was the beginning of motherhood for me, not even yet an adult at all. and now I'm 25, I've been doing this mom thing for 6 years. I've loved (almost) every minute of it, but sometimes I get selfish and think...what about me?

I never really had a chance to think about what I  wanted or needed. I've always put my little peoples' needs first. that's how we're told it should be. that's being a good mother. a responsible mother. but from deep in my soul comes a cry...what about me?!

I believe that as good mothers we are to put aside our own desires some of the time. the care of our children is to be our first priority. however, it's also important for us to maintain our own identity. i am a mother but i'm also a woman. I feel things, I dream things, I have desires and longings.

I became a mother at a very young age. too young. I wasn't ready. my identity became changing diapers and being a stay-at-home mom.

but God has been showing me that I am more than that. I am more than my past, more than my present. I am more than changing diapers and watching veggie tales. I love all of those things, I do, but that's not all there is to me. I am a person. a woman. a child of the Most High. I love running, being outside, and listening to the cello. I love to write. I enjoy good food. I am a dreamer of dreams, a loyal friend, a treasure to my Maker.

that brings tears to my eyes.

a treasure. wow. if we started to see ourselves as Christ sees us, how would that change who we are? He created me just as I am, flaws and all. I am so unique, there is no one on earth just like me. He has big plans for my life, shouldn't I have big plans too? shouldn't I dream big dreams?

the same goes for you. yes, you.

you're a mom. you're a woman. allow yourself to be someone apart from your kids. do things you enjoy, nurture that part of yourself that likes to dream and be creative. do that, and it will make you an even better mom. i promise :)

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