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Friday, July 20, 2012

Summer love

I don't want the summer to end! We have been having so much fun together, going to the pool and the beach, going on hikes, and just spending time together as a family. This summer we welcomed our new baby girl, and have had/will have family coming to visit us. Summer means warmer temperatures, even more time spent outdoors (if possible), suntans, water and fun. Justin has had awesome hours the last several months, coming home from work by 2:30 every single day. That never happens!!

But the main reason I do not want summer to end: once autumn is arriving, my husband will be leaving :( He'll be gone tons, training...always training. And I'd feel alright about it, except after all the training, he'll be deploying. Ew. The only thing worse than him being gone training is him deploying..

Justin has been home so much the last 10 months or so. I have loved every minute of it! I have even loved our spats, because I'd rather fight with him than have him gone. Avery has spent a lot of time with him, with me being pregnant and then having a new baby. Ave and Justin have gone on so many dates together. She's become accustomed to having him around every day, to him being here at night to tuck her in and home on weekends to be with us. I think when he leaves this time, it will be harder than it has ever been for Avery.. And for me; I have never been alone with the two girls before! It's always just been me and Ave.

I'm nervous. Not only has Avery become accustomed to having Justin around, but so have I. I've seen him every day for the last ten months! I've cooked for him, watched movies with him, cuddled on the couch with him. I've had his help. I've had kisses and hugs and time. My soulmate has been with me steadily for so long. I've forgotten what it's like to say goodbye, truly. I've forgotten what it's like to be alone, to do everything myself and be independant. I've forgotten what it's like to miss him..to long for his kiss and his touch. He sleeps beside me every night. I can reach over and touch him whenever I like. I love having him around. With Justin home, our family is complete; life is good.

And when the summer ends, our lives will have a change in seasons also. I just hope we are ready...

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